in repair

peng's online at this very moment, but i can't really talk to her since her ate's online too. i miss her so much. we haven't talk in ages.

how am i? um. still the same, i guess. i still miss him. i still can't sleep and i barely eat. i guess it's really hard to "suddenly" lose someone, in the context that that person wont treat you the same way. he was one person i could talk to, and i can be honest with that it's hard that things cannot be the same again. we cannot have those long chats that we used to have. i guess i was too attached with him that i was in shock with the suddenness of everything. this will take a while, but i'm survivng every single day.