libis and macie

just had a haircut. it's kinda' cliche, but it did help a bit to get things off my mind for a while. if only haircuts can remove heartaches. but of course it can't.

my brother and i went to libis last night for the odyssey event. too bad we forgot to bring three things: my camera, silent sanctuary's and sponge cola's album. we went to sta. lucia first for hale's mall tour then libis after. soapdish was onstage when we arrived. then to my surprise, silent sanctuary was the next act. they're amazing. last night was the first time i saw them play live. and it definitely won't be the last. we were just in time, because the succeeding acts were our favorites among the night's lineup: itchyworms, sponge cola, hale (again!), chicosci, swissy, paramita, mayonaise, and up dharma down. we've decided not to watch sago and hilera's set since it was already one in the morning.

i was glad to see some old friends i haven't seen "forever" like gracie ("grabe, and tagal na nating 'di nag kita ah. ang payat mo bel!) deekay( sobrang nipis mo naman, bel), joal (o ano nang nangyari sa'yo?!), nikki, anna, xavier and the rest of hale friends. i also had the chance to say hi to ean, swissy, sir toti and armi. all was good.

memories of my old self kept on pouring. first, 5 and Up. last night was macie mendigo. she conquered dyslexia and her essay about it won an award from UNICEF. her inspiring story was my first front page byline for junior inquirer (JI). she was, i think, eleven years old then. it was a big leap for me then when ate nats, my former editor, gave me that assignment and said that it would be for JI's front page. i saw macie earlier that evening while she was taking photos beside the stage. i approached her and asked if she was macie. then i told her that i was the one who interviewed her for the inquirer article. "ang laki laki mo na..." i quipped. then she smiled and said "...oo nga po, ang tagal na po 'non." i asked her to send my regards to her mom for me. she asked if i was still writing for inquirer, i smiled and said not anymore, but was planning to contribute again.

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amidst the noise. amidst the familiar faces and the crazy chaos: i am still chasing you in my head. i tried hard to drown myself last night. i really did.

i hope this would be over soon.