Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Cynicism
Nagkukulong lang ako sa kwarto ko.
I was surprised and alarmed that my DAD brought that to my attention.
"Lawakan mo naman ang mundo mo..." he said. Then he added that I hardly talk to them like I used to. Even to my two brothers.
I've been pondering things about me transforming into a hermit, and not even aware of it. Not that I am complaining because I just like to spend my weekend that way. I cannot really go to Peng's house even if I wanted to. It's either she has a shift at the hospital or she spends time with her boyfriend, which is actually great. No sarcasm there. Then you might ask if that's the only thing that I am most likely to be spending my time. Well, yes. Boring huh? I don't know. I used to be the outgoing type. Always out of the house, talking to people and discovering bits about their life.
Sometimes the world is just scary that I'd rather stay inside my room. Scared of, again, bumping into someone that will be a potential friend and then might hurt me badly in the end. Scared of saying something stupid.
God, give me strength and inspiration.
Monday, July 30, 2007
UdD in Time Magazine
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Hallows, Horcrux and Harry

Before the book came out, rumors said that the author will kill Harry in the end. But Rowling was advised by some acclaimed writers like Stephen King not to end Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows as such, as it may lead to Conan Doyle's fate when he decided to vanish Sherlock Holmes in, what he thought, would be his last novel.
Peril is at hand as the 748-page novel opened with Voldemort and his army of Death Eaters torturing the Hogwarts professor of Muggle Studies.
At the end of Half-blood Prince Harry, Ron and Hermione decided to skip their last year at Hogwarts and go backpacking to fulfill Dumbledore's last wish to vanquish the remaining Horocrux. Without any clear view of their path, the three decided to make the journey and hunt for fragments of Voldemort's soul with the knowledge and experience from the previous years as their map and weapon.
Then the Deathly Hallows intervened. Three powerful objects, when in possession, would make one the master of death. Immense fear of Voldermort's next act of murder and skepticism about Dumbledore's true identity, Harry decides whether he must go after the Hallows or the Horocrux.
The book have short stories within the chapters that filled holes and created a more vivid view of the main characters that affected Harry's fate: Albus Dumbledore, Lily Potter and Severus Snape. Dumbledore's past was definitely unforeseen and controversial. But my favorite of all these stories are the tales from Snape, since it was revealed that he had this secret love for Harry's mother. All of the things Snape did from the first book until the last was all an act to protect Harry. He was, for me, the biggest surprise. My brother and I suspected him as a vampire, but the things written about him in the book was far more than blood-sucking.
There are some parts, while reading, that made me impatient since there are a lot of times that all they did was travelling and not accomplishing anything (meaning not finding a Horcrux, or a Hallow for that matter). But, nevertheless, these moments were action packed! Like when they were caught by Greyback and was locked in the dungeon of the Malfoy manor and the eerie encounter with Bathilda Bagshot.
The war at Hogwarts is definitely mind-blowing. Giants, house-elves, centaurs, werewolves, Death Eaters, members of the Order, members of Dumbledore's Army and folks from Hogsmeade and Lord Voldemort all in one place. Immense chaos!
Rowling satisfied both sides of the fan's and critic's expectations. The other half was expecting that Harry will die at the end because of the prophecy: Neither will die, while the other survives. Harry was Avada Kedavara-ed by Voldemort. He is the one who was destined to face death. And he accepted this wholeheartedly. Hence the unexpected twist of his near-death experience at the King's Cross station with Dumbledore, which satisfied the strong opinion of the Stephen King and other writers that the hero of the story must victoriously survive and live.
The story was wrapped-up with a nineteen-years-after epilogue that, while reading every sentence, kept a wide smile on my face and made me sigh and utter awwww's in-between.
A friend of mine asked me what I felt knowing that Deathly Hallows will be the last of the series. I never really thought about it, until now. I wanted to say that I'll miss Harry, Ron and Hermione, but then... I believe I will not, because Rowling's masterpiece are indescribably unforgettable. Platform 9 3/4, Diagon Alley, Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, Quidditch, Hogsmeade... everything narrated by Rowling made me, especially my two brothers, rediscover the pleasure and the rewards of reading. They immersed themselves to reading other novels and masterpieces after learning about the boy with a lightning scar on his forehead.
It was overwhelming to know that I read book with the rest of the world.
That everyone celebrated the victory of The Boy Who Lived.
Monday, July 23, 2007
parking lot grafitti
Looking at it this morning made me sad and hopeful at the same time.
Maybe the one who created the graffiti had been searching and waiting for a long time. Maybe it was already too much, he had tirelessly waited and searched, that he did this drastic move to paint it on the wall for his thoughts to be heard.

I just hope this person finds the other half...
And I hope I will find mine too.
Friday, July 20, 2007
i am so ordinary
She looks like me but a bit prettier. She's a skater and a ballet dancer. I saw her on your motorcycle. In the seat I thought was meant for me. And when your mother came to Boston you disappeared. And then I saw you three together. I guess she makes the best impression. With her charming femininity...
But I am the one you will call when alone. And I am the one who will give when she's gone. And so I give. So I give. I tell myself that love is truly giving. Somehow I justify this. Hoping you will understand me.
Hoping you will love me back.
And she is your holy Mary. And I am so ordinary. And she is your Queen Cleopatra. And I'm just your morning after. And she is your Star Spangled Banner. And I am just Frere Jaque. And you can lose me if you want to.
And I am so ordinary.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
hallows' spoilers
The books being locked in a separate room and can only be opened on July 21st is one of the many rules issued by Scholastics for its release. And anyone caught not following these set of rules can and will be sued.But hell with the rules! Despite all the mandates and strict procedures issued, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows ' spoilers can now be accessed from the internet. This includes pictures of the actual pages of the book! Ang tapang!
As Yahoo News stated, fan sites like The Leaky Cauldron and Mugglenet have vowed to keep spoilers away.
Pero meron parin talagang mga kill-joy na ayaw papigil.
The web page of the alleged spoilers of the much-anticipated book also include all of the titles of the book's chapters. All of it!
Sana Sabado na agad!
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
emo rocker's bad hairday

Artists really have bad-hair-day phase once in their life. He looks grouchy and a big comb will be chasing him any minute. I imagined him spending most of his time reading a book or just sitting in a corner or under the shade of trees observing cheerleaders, jocks, nerds and other cliques that passed his way.
Who would've thought that this grouchy guy will turn out to be the front man of one of the greatest emo rock band ever assembled?
Friday, July 13, 2007
amelia earhart
I've been hearing her name from a couple of songs which I cannot really remember the titles at the moment.
While I was reading the article about this 70-year-old mystery, I found myself asking this question:
What if Earhart really planned to just vanish? Not really died, but be anonymous? Though her journey was a much-publicized expedition in the history of mankind, what if she just wants to get away from it all?
But deep inside, her heart cries.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
phoenix review
I recalled the novel version of the film having parts where I wanted to skip chapters and stop reading. A huge part of it was pretty much talk, talk, talk. It was not as action packed as "Goblet" and not much revelations like "Azkaban". The major thing offered by "Order" was Harry and Voldemort are somewhat connected in ways that is yet to be revealed.As expected, the movie had its down side as the novel and pretty much revolved around the pages of The Daily Prophet; but the impressive set, cinematography and most of the actors giving justice to their respective characters were the movie's saving grace. Plus, it was really exciting seeing the younger characters all grown-up.
To those of you who have read the book, most of the things were showed in Director David Yates' 2-hour-and-18-minute masterpiece. I will just mention the things that were different and were missing that I think, if presented as is, would've helped the story-telling better.
Nymphadora Tonks - I expected a tougher, more tomboy version. She was my most memorable new character when I read the book, but her movie version didn't appeal to me that much.
Sirius' mother was missing - as soon as Harry arrived at Number 12 Grimauld Place, I expected to hear the ear-splitting shrieks of Sirius' mother. That would've been unforgettable.

Dolores Umbridge - I expected a more Matutina-ish demeanor.
The Enchanted Coin - The presentation of Dumbledore's Army (D.A.) will be more interesting if they showed the part where Hermione put an enchanment (Protean Charm) to the coins for the group. In the book, she did this to cleverly and secretly transport the meeting schedules to all the members of the D.A.
Dobby and Cho's best friend - in the film, Neville was the one who found the room of requirement, and it was Cho whom Snape gave the Veritaserum, leading to the betrayal of Dumbledore's Army.
The Kiss - It was awkward, cute and longer than I expected.
St. Mungo's - would've been interesting if they showed Neville's parents, but on second thought, this might have been disturbing to the younger audience
Department Of Mysteries - where's the tank full of brains?
The D.A. Sessions, Weasly Twins' escape, Harry's Occlumency Lessons with Snape and the battle that Harry had when he was possessed by Voldemort were the unforgettable parts of the movie for me.

All in all, I give the movie 4 stars for the impressive visual effects and for maintaining the peg Cuaron started in Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
As they always say, reading the book is better. But seeing Harry and the rest of the gang come of age amidst us through Daniel Radcliffe and the rest of the cast, the movie was worth every penny.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
balik-tanaw
1. was in third grade
2. was part of a "girl-band" in school were we gave Jamie Baby and Donna Cruz a run for their money. We're 5 in the group and we always perform in school events. Nutrition Month, Parents' Day; name it, we have performed in it
3. am fond of playing Ten-Twenty
10 years ago, I:
1. received my first love letter
2. started writing for Junior Inquirer, Philippine Daily Inquirer's saturday section for kids
3. wanted to be a Computer Programmer
5 years ago, I:
1. wrote my thesis
2. released my independent poetry book, sponsored by my mentor back in college
3. played guitar and egg shaker for an acoustic band
2 years ago, I:
1. was a researcher, an assistant director, a production coordinator and a production assistant
2. started appreciating local music
3. wanted to write scripts for TV
1 year ago, I:
1. stopped being an assistant director, production coordinator and a production assistant
2. became a technical writer
3. was nervous about everything
6 months ago, I:
1. started to get over someone I loved dearly
2. met someone who ended up breaking me, BIG TIME
3. was assigned my first major project at work
Yesterday, I:
1. was excited about today :)
2. watched episode 15-19 of Gilmore Girls' first season
3. was surprised by my dad :)
Today, I
1. am excited about tonight's movie date with my family
2. will be watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix twice :)
3. am excited about tomorrow :)
Tomorrow, I
1. will probably be renaming files for the application
2. will continue my Gilmore Girls marathon
3. will start reading Hemingway's short story
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Monday, July 09, 2007
harry on IMAX
2 hours and 18 minutes. That's the film's running time. But only the last 20 minutes in 3D? Interesting. Well, I'm not really aware how IMAX technology works, aside from you can experience the film where some what you ARE a part of the film (correct me it I am wrong here). I asked around, IMAX tickets costs 250 to 450 Php. Fancy huh? Plus it's very "OC" (missing Seth Cohen).But it's IMAX! It's 3D!
Rommel, a friend of mine, told me that it would be impossible for me to score tickets in the next two weeks since every single day, starting on Wednesday, is already sold out. Every single seat. I haven't verified that information with SM Mall Of Asia yet, but if that's the case, I hope they will extend it.
I watched a few, well, twelve never-before-seen clips from the film at Yahoo. I can't wait to see the rest of it!
There will be few lucky people who will be seeing the movie tonight, before the rest of the world does, for the film's first premiere in Glorietta (I think this is sponsored by Magic 89.9). Then another one tomorrow in Greenbelt (this one's for RX 93.1). Lucky, lucky people!
I'm excited about our movie night on Wednesday. It's opening night. Plus, it's Zaide's first ever birthday treat for the family. Yey! :)
Sunday, July 08, 2007
new ♥ / gilmore girls
My birth day. The day I was born. A couple of people asked me what was it that I wanted or wished for. Every year, I normally do know what I want.
Amazingly, this year, I don't have any idea.
Someone jokingly suggested that I should get a new heart since my current one's still crushed and being beaten prick by prick everyday. It was a pretty good suggestion. I kinda' lingered on it.
I finished One Tree Hill's fourth season episodes yesterday. I am really satisfied about how things turned out. I still have to find out though if CW's still producing season 5. I watched Forest Gump too.
Gilmore Girls' first season episodes occupied my whole day today. I started my marathon around 8am this morning. I finished episode 9 around 3:30, then took a bath and prepared for church. I am just waiting for my dad. 4:30 and 6pm mass were his assignment today. I'll be continuing my marathon in a while when I get home.
That's pretty much it. Nothing grand going on.
Friday, July 06, 2007
big bro's birthday
My mom shared that one question Zaide asked her when he was just six years old. I was in awe when I first heard it. What was it that I always do that made him want to be older than me? Well, that can never happen in the laws of nature but even though he really is not the kuya of the family (because I am the eldest), he always have this toughness and strength anyone can dream of for an older brother.
*He is the family clown. The corny punch-lines? Keep 'em coming!
I know we've had our differences, but I am really thankful for having a brother and a friend in you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAIDE!Tuesday, July 03, 2007
grabbed from superbianca
1. what is your favorite word?
Silence.
2. what is your least favorite word?
Deceit.
3. what turns you on?
Good conversation.
4. what turns you off?
People who thinks highly of themselves.
5. what sound or noise do you love?
That cracking sound when you stepped on a pile of dry leaves.
6. what sound or noise do you hate?
Loud vehicle horns and sirens.
7. what is your favorite curse word?
Geddemmit! :P
8. what profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
Talk show host or a professional hip-hop dancer.
9. what profession would you not like to do?
OFW. Mahirap malayo sa mga mahal sa buhay.
10. if HEAVEN exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
Welcome Home! :)
Monday, July 02, 2007
BM's back! yey!
O yes! He really is back. BM likes surprises, but we never expected that HE will surprise us. He went home last Friday. Zaide was busy preparing for work while my dad was busy cooking our dinner when they heard a familiar meow. Then there he was sitting on our parent's bedroom window. My dad noticed that BM really looked scared and was meow-ing non-stop until Zaide carried him. Bunso sent me a text message while I was on my way home from the office that BM's back. I couldn't believe it at first because it has been a month since he was gone. We all concluded that he might be dead hence the weather and lack of food. You might think that we are all cynical, but really, in the back of our heads, we are hopeful that there will come the day that he will come home to us. And he did!Our theory was someone caught BM and decided to keep him. And then, with all his might, tried to escape. Maybe that's why he was sooo thin and sooo scared when Zaide found him by the window. All of us showered BM a well-deserved dupong and Bunso prepared a cup-full of dinner for our dearest cat.
He occassionally have this long meows whenever we talk to him, somewhat trying to tell us the story of his mishaps and adventures while he was away. And we always say to him that we are all happy that he is back, and don't ever leave again.
"Meow!" BM replied.









