From The Heart...

Blogging day as usual. I've finished half of the assignments and only have bodybuilding supplements left to write about. I'll save that for later.

What a week. Toughest to date. It has been three weeks of constant roller-coaster ride where I am always stuck upside down. If emotions had their switches, mine would always be turned off.

I read John Mayer's latest blog entry this morning and it seemed that he's also going through the same things as I am when it comes to how people see him.

"What now, then? I can only really say for myself: Enjoy who I am, the talents and the liabilities. Stop acting careless. In fact, care more. Be vulnerable but stay away from where it hurts. Read. See more shows. Of any kind. Rock shows, art shows, boat shows. Create more art. Wear hoodies to dinner. Carry a notebook and hand it to people when they passionately recommend something and ask them to write it down for me."

At this point, I am most vulnerable. But where it hurts is the only place I have to be in. Because where I am now is where I will learn the most. I am only sure about two things. One is writing. It's the only thing I know that I can do and can be good at. I know I am expected to be perfect. I will be perfect. Just give me time.

"Act nervous when I'm nervous, puzzled when I don't know what the hell to do, and smile when it all goes my way. And never in any other order than that. "

The past two weeks had also been a time for me to reflect about things. Things that matter and things that I am sure of. Everything hurts, but it's the only place that I need to be in. It'll spoil the moment if I say something now, but believe it or not, I've had this for five long years. I have never been sure and honest about anything in my entire life. I tried my hardest to forget about it. About this. But I will just be lying if I did. I guess honesty and being honest with yourself pays a big price. I don't really know if I'll had the chance to let this out but I am willing to wait, even if there's nothing to wait for.

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Circus

He hates it when she clads in sexy costumes every night, making her precious body for everyone to marvel. Armed with face-paints and other trinkets she walks away, with a nervous look on her innocent face. Elephants await...

Condo

She had been raving about it. It's not as luxurious as Branson condos but she loves every bit of it. Eleventh floor is just perfect, with view of the metro and what-have-you's. She's still getting used to the scent of the room, and how she'll be able to sleep with that unfamiliar scent. But it keeps her calm, knowing that she's away from it all. 

Demmit!

I forgot that you hate people, especially your friends when they get into that mode. But man, just let me be like this and let me feel this way for a while. 

Don't get mad.

Tagged By Olive

1. What is your occupation? Technical Writer.
2.What color are your socks right now? I am not wearing socks at the moment... 
3. What are you listening to right now? Silence.
4. What was the last thing you ate? Blueberry muffin.
5. Can you drive a stick shift? No. 
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Black.
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Raymond, last Sunday. 
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes. Very much =D
9. Favorite Drink? Dalandan Juice.
10. Favorite Sport to watch? None in particular.
11. Have you ever dyed your hair? Nope.
12. Pets? Doobidoo, Brush, Junior and Charcoal.
13. Favorite Food? Cheesecake!!!
14. Last movie you watched? Atonement on DVD.
15. Favorite Day of the year? First three days of November.
16. What do you do to vent anger?  I silently scream and write my heart out.
17. What was your favorite toy as a child? I can't remember.
18. What is your favorite, fall or spring? Fall.
19. Hugs or kisses? Hugs. Lots of it.
20. What kind of pie? Hmmm...
21. Do you want your friends to email you back? Yes. Who wouldn't?
22. Who is most likely to respond? Marife.
23. Who is least likely to respond? Erm, Raymond? 
24. Living arrangements? Living in the mountains of Pulong Parang with my parents, two brothers and four pets.
25. Last time you cried? Last night.
26. What is on the floor of your closet? Old clothes that needs to be sorted out.
27. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? Marife. She's my best friends since third grade.
28. The friend you have known the shortest amount of time that you are sending this to? Carla.
29. Favorite smell? Rice field in the morning.
30. What inspires you? Honesty and Trust that I get from people around me.
31. What are you afraid of? Snakes and humongous spiders! 
32. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? Spicy hamburgers.
33. Favorite car? Beetle a.k.a. Pendong Car. LOL.
34. Favorite cat breed? None in particular.
35. Number of keys on your key ring? 1.
36. How many years at your current job? 2 years this coming June.
37. Favorite day of the week? Wednesday.
38. How many provinces have you lived in? 1.
39. How many countries have you been to? None. 

Tagging Marife, Carla and Raymond.

Note To Self

Do not send SMS to people when you're groggy. You might regret it, big time.

This Only Means...

Have you ever really looked at me? Or thought about me secretly? Do I make you wonder at all? About the speed of light. Outside our little world we might not feel so alone...

Puro s'ya na lang. Sana'y ako naman. 'Di mo lang alam, ika'y minamasdan. Sana'y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam. 'Di mo lang alam, kahit tayo'y magkaibigan lang, bumabalik ang lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan. Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman, ako'y nandito lang. Hindi mo lang alam.

Once you've had it you're in an awful fix. 'Cause after you've had it you never wanna quit...

Careful when you open. It's easy to be broken. In the strangest fashion, you start a chain reaction. When you look my way, something's pounding away. And I wonder if I ever felt this before. You are reaching something that is beating...

Take it back to the beginning, back to the start. When gravity's pulling, you're still holding my heart. You come crashing down.

Would you run away with me if it's tonight?

I don't know you, but I want you all the more for that...

Again?

They gave me drug treatment centers as a keyword again. I can't remember how many times I have been given this assignment, but It's more than twice. I have a couple more keywords that have been repeatedly used on random blog posts, and some of them have also been reassigned a couple times. Well, assignments are assignments...

15

Get rid of that filthy car cover! Thinking of concealing that hideous scratches and bumps won't do the trick for your dad. He will eventually find out that you crashed his car. You'll be grounded for a year I bet; with no TV, no mobile phone, no iPod and no extra allowances. 

Or you can tell the truth and receive a little mercy...

Evaluation

Knowing a series of employee performance evaluations from your bosses for the past quarter gives you a sense of achievement. In my case, it gave me a grasp of where I am and what are the things that I need to improve for the next quarter. The evaluation also is a challenge for me to improve and be better in the coming days.

Frustration Continues

Had an impromptu movie date last night with Peng. I window shopped a bit while waiting for her. I spotted some cute-looking series of walk in tubs when I passed by Home Depot. We were aiming for the 5:20 screening, but ended going in the 7:40 screening because of traffic.

I've been wanting to watch Step Up 2 since it opened last week, and I am happy that I was able to watch it with my best friend because we totally dig movies like that. Between the two of us, Peng is the dancer. She's gifted when it comes to busting cool moves on the dance floor. I remember her being in almost all of the school prods back in the days. I can dance a bit, pero medyo matigas bewang ko, LOL.

The dance sequences in the movie were AMAZING! It reminded me of this big frustration I've had for years: learn hip-hop and street dancing. Watching Briana Evigan beautifully moved in every dance sequence was really inspiring. Who would've thought that a girl with such a pretty face looking so prim and proper at first glance can move like that! Sobrang astig!

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Sleeping After This...

It's 5:30am and I am still here in the office doing documentation and testing stuff for the project. I finished all the testing tasks earlier, and I badly need a nap. But before that, I've decided to accomplish all my blog assignments this week, one of which is to write something about auto insurance quote. But I am too sleepy to further talk about it.

Anyway, I'll be sharing my Mandy experience last Wednesday maybe this weekend after all the deadlines. I have a couple of photos and videos from the concert and the shoot uploaded at Multiply. Check it out if you have time :D

*yawns*

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Mandy Moore Experience

I am still in awe.

Tsaka na kwento, trabaho muna ako. :D

In Five Hours...

I'll be meeting Mandy Moore in the flesh...

Dream come true ito! Wah.

The crew's on their way, and Valerie Tan will be the one conducting the interview. So medyo nahiya naman ako kasi pupunta sya sa bahay namen. LOL.

Excited na ako! :D

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Across The Universe

Aside from Juno, Across the Universe is one of the films I have been waiting for to be shown locally. I have this thing for films with strong visuals mixed with great musical score. The film is a fictional love story set in the 1960s. A combination of live action and animation, this masterpiece by Julie Taymor used more than 30 songs from The Beatles to tell the story of Jude, Lucy and other colorful characters in the film.

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Not So Gaga...

I got my Holga prints today. I am a newbie in lomography, so I was not surprise that my photos were not so dreamy. Only 21 shots turned out alright, while the rest were either dark, blurry or underexposed. I am happy though, because there were decent shots that came out of it. I was browsing some lomo pics earlier today, and I wondered what went wrong. Then I pondered about my shooting habits with the Holga, and here are the things I learned:

1. Buy films with higher ASA (ISO). ASA 100 is only good for broad daylight shoot. I used my Holga to some places that I thought had a good lighting like the elevator and a restaurant with during the day. But the film was only made for shooting with a very bright or strong lighting condition.
   
2. Use a different brand of film. Maybe Kodak.
   
3. Learn more about the B and N mode.
   
4. Learn more about shutter speed tricks to avoid over and under exposing the images.
   
5. Use the flash all the time!

Feel free to leave me a comment if you have more tips and tricks to share. I still have five rolls, and I am hoping that I can get a sharper and dreamier shots on the next batch.

You can view the pictures here.

Sarah

I have a doll back then, and I named her Emily. I carry her around wherever I went. I made a crib out of old boxes and wrote Emily crib on its headboard. We used to play tea party and pretend that Emily is part of my class, with Loti and the rest. Maybe I can have more time with Emily, if only Ms. Minchin would stop asking me to do chores all day...

Zzzz.

What was his name again? Zachary?

Why are you asking me? Is there anything interesting about that guy from yesterday? Zylorin? Is that the correct name? I don't know why you are making a big deal out of it. I thought you said he's annoyingly awkward? Stuttering non-stop and had this out-of-this-word idea of how his dream girl should be.

He's a poet. Yeah, he's awkward and gawky. But he's a poet. Get it?

Um. No.

Buhay Pa Naman

Six hours. Wow.

Saturday. Yeah, it's still Saturday. Actually, it feels more like a hundred hours judging my itchy eyes and my head ache. Ang ingay kasi dito. I could drink a ton of vodka to wash this all out. Oh I forgot: I don't drink. Hehe. But it feels like being inside of one of those wine clubs where everyone is talking nonsense.

I'll be starting a new business on Monday. O diba, negosyante na! I studied the basics last night. It involved a little math which I am not a big fan of, but it looks pretty easy.

I've been sneezing non-stop because of allergies. Nakakahiya tuloy kasi medyo nag-kalat ako ng virus dito. LOL.

Lalagnatin yata ako.

My Holga prints will be available on Monday. I paid Php275 for five rolls of film for Digiprint's film to CD service. I asked if I can apply for their Pro membership, but they suggested I apply online. Being a Pro member at Digiprint entitles the customer to certain discounts on their services.

I'll stop blogging now. I don't really feel well. :(

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